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……ive never met such a disorganised person in my life…its the 1st of october and shes still here packing and “cleaning” and everything is still a mess…all my plans had to be pushed back so i couldnt really see my friends….ah well…it was expected…-_-…the wall….sigh….anyone can do DIY but its a matter of how much effort u put in it…its not complete and i bet u she will not be willing to part with her money anytime soon….but hey too bad…im holding the money… anyway apart from that the house is starting to feel empty…i dont know if its a good or bad thing..its a very new feeling hahha! i guess its coz ive been used to having someone else in the hosue for a year =). dan just went back to somerset too…grrr…couldnt stay for one more day…stupid bastard…but he has work and arranged to meet his friends so i shouldnt complain especially since hes been up to london many times just to c me and i havent been down to somerset in awhile O_O… apart from that nothing new really just packing and cleaning and deciding what to bring back etc…..anyway…im offff tataaaa xxx

i have completed my MSc with a Merit!!!! yayyyyyyyyyyyyy!!

omg omg omg!!!! the dress i designed for Darimeya was featured in a newspaper!!!! metro!!! and ppl are asking for ittt!!! the manager in topshop has been bugging nicki  for the dress!!!! omg omg omg!! this is awesomee!!! now i want to see ppl buying and wearing it!!! and i will be getting my own too of course >.< im soooooo excited and estatic!!!!!! luvs y’alllllll!! xxxxx

today is a pouty day…i dont know why…im just pouty pouty pouty pouty pouty pouty pouty….big pout!!!

• yayyyy!! with  my thesis out of the way, im happyyy!!! and well…-_-”"” slightly worried that it wont be good enough….well to be honest, greg did read through it like ten thousand times and vik looked through it like crazy as well O_O..and i proofread it like…..10 times? T-T, im reallly hoping i get a good grade for my thesis…now i have to work for my viva!!! yes…i have an oral exam…on my thesis O_O!!!!!! i want to cry! nah not really,,…but it still freaks me out abit…im kinda chilled now and am just taking the time to browse at stuff (window shopping *cough*)…and yes im still job hunting…can someone out there pls hire me as a research assistant/technician? im hardworking, fun, grumpy, hungry, whiny and happy >.<!!

• anyway, nothing new or exciting happening at the moment, dan is up from somerset and is working on his thesis HAHA!…..yes im mean..and well….i am bored out of my mind nowadays as i dont have to do anything….i really should make an effort to read my journals…anyway….i should apply for jobs meantime…tataaaa! 

…i think u guys need a few lessons on customer service…

•  NEVER be too pushy!….it turns customers off BIG TIME!! ure not in chinatown! be more professional
• SMILE! even if the customers decide not to buy anything..ppl can shop around before deciding you know..
• NEVER think you are out of the customers hearing range and start to BITCH about them…what r u stupid? go bitch when the customer has left or even better! bitch in the closet or stock room!
• DONT EVER insists you are correct and the customers are wrong..

• anyway…yes i went to Harrods to surround myself with pretty things coz pretty things and ppl make me happy hahaah! yes I just loooove staring at pretty things and ppl….anyway…so Mr shoe boudoir asshole on the christian louboutin section……INSISTED my 1 mm thick tights made the shoes i tried on lose and slippery eventhough they were a 38 (my shoe size naturally)…and ok…he suggested i tried them on without my 1 mm tights…but PULLEASEEEE!!…..with or without tights,…..i think ive tried on ENOUGH shoes to know whether they fit me or not ok? and clearly….those didnt….taking off my tights isnt going to make any difference coz they were lose all around….to prove my point…i tried on another pair of shoes which were slingbacks as well…..size 38…with my tights on btw…and WOW!!!!! ,,….they were not slippery or lose!…and then….he goes off to one corner…and BICTHES!!! to his colleague about it!….errr HELLO?!! i can HEAR u? ure so STUPID! to think u were out of my range!    anyway…on to lady at tods..she was really nice at first and helpful….then …omg…..when i was trying to decide which shoe was prettier…… she INSISTED i buy them then and there and return them within 14 days if i didnt like it…….i mean…whether i want to buy them or not is up to ME! u have no right to force me to buy them….i just looked at my friend, Danya…we were SOOOOO turned off by her……. i decided not to get them anyway….but gosh did she SULK !! …yeesh….   

•  anyway….apart from that…i got this cellulite busting cream called Fat Girl Sleep! its the sister of Fat Girl Slim! and they did a survey where they tested this product with other cellulite busting products…obviously….the women who tested them didnt knwo which cream was which but anyway….fat girl sleep came top!!!!…=0…so i thought…lets try it…oh fat girl sleep is for night time….for those who have a very busy schedule ^_^…and can only put stuff on at night…it helps removes toxins etc and penetrates deeper into the skin while u sleep/rest at night….fat girl slim is a day one which can be used for night as well and has caffeine..which is meant to be good for cellulite…its all about preference…they both do the same things…but i guess its whether u want caffeine or not (yes some customers didnt like the idea of caffeine) or whether u want a nice night one which has nice lavender smell…no the caffeine one does not smell like caffeine…its only an ingredient…-_-. so yes!!!…i will  test fat girl sleep out and let u know the results!  anyway im off….should have a proof read of my thesis and im DONE!!! i should SOOOOO reward myself for finishing my thesis 5 days early!!!! let me know if u wanna try fat girl slim/sleep cha…xxxx…..did i mention the TODs ballet pumps were super comfy? 

….i dont htink ive ever met someone so stupid in my entire life….u should be thankful im not screaming down ur bloody ear right now…u should in fact thank sharon and sasha who have PROFUSELY apologised on YOUR BLOODY behalf for using my laptop without my permission….i dont believe i have ever met someone so disrespectful before….we are not close friends…i dont know u as well as i know sasha or sharon….what gives u the bloody fucking right to use my laptop without asking me? is this ur fucking house? no..is it ur laptop? no…did u ever think of maybe calling to ask if u could use it? no? its not that difficult to pick up ur bloody fucking phone and call me or ask sasha who was right next to u for my number if u dont have it..its called COURTESY and RESPECT…i wonder what goes through that dimwitted head of urs…would u like it if someone u didnt really know used ur stuff without ur permission? dont tell me u wouldnt be pissed off or even slightly annoyed…the only reason im not yelling at u down the bloody phone now is coz of shasha and sharon…u should feel happy…they shouldnt have to apologise for u but they covered up sooo much for u….consider urself an asshole for making ur very good friends apologise for something they didnt do…prick!

i dont mnd travelling on the bus in london…the journey can actually be fun and nice….what pisses me off the most tho is when silly stupid inconsiderate ppl disturb my journey…or when little 5 year old kids cant behave and scream at the top of their lungs like its their home….sweetie…ure only 5….u play and eat and do whatever u like with no worries at all and u ruin 10 ppls day coz u dont want to do somthing ur mommy says or tells u to do??? seriously….i dont think we all need to hear a freakin kid screaming and crying at 8 30 in the morning…its stressful!! it ruins a nice peaceful morning..but hey,…who are we to yell at the kid…so what can we do?….glare….turn around and glareee…and give the dirrrtiesst look we can at the kid or mom…i hate brats….despite being a brat myself…and yeah sure…..they are only kids…what do they know?….well for ur information, there are many kids who can actually behave on the bus and not make any noise or cry…but yes yes all kids are different….yeesh…..what can i do but vent my frustration and pray to the high heavens that my kids wont turn out like that too O_O yikess!!!! i dont think i can deal with the crying…screaming….or the super glares given by other passengers on the bus!!!  anyway on to inconsiderate stupid idiots….so i was sitting down on the outside and then this bald 40+ man comes up and says he wants to sit down…so i got up to let him move in…and what does he do? sit at my seat….so i was like wtf? and he looks up at me and says “i like sitting on the outside”…….who the fuck does he think he is to tell me that? yeah sure we all like to sit outside or have the whole 2 seats to ourselves sometimes but i move out of my way so u can sit down and u wont move for me? and u tell me to my face in a matter of fact tone that u like to sit outside and that i should sit inside??? fuck off! who the fuck do u think u are? queen of england? piece of &^%*..who probably doesnt even have a fucking life! yes…im angry…. so there…thast my post of the day…mayz said that my previous post didnt go up….very strange….should be up now….anyway im off to make some dinner.. which consists of….maggi mee and eggg!!!! =D yayyyyyyyyyy!!! ……stupid piece of shit…..yes im still angry….that man should die…yes i sound like a maniac…anyway..hi mayz!! hope u can read this blog and it makes u …smile? hi cha hi seth..xxx…i still think that man should die..piece of shit..oh…did i mention he got off after one stop? asshole! 

….i havent updated my blog for aggesss!!! thats how “busy” ive been…what can i say,…im a social butterfly after all and i love my lab too much!!!!! T-T….if only that were the case..anyway,..nothing new so far…or nothing new u havent heard….to the oh so many lovely ppl who actually read my blog…which mainly consists of…mayz,…cha…moo..maybe seth?….wow!! i have roughly 3-4 readers!!! exciting..yes im on the brink of madness…i have my project due. im wayyyy behind deadline for my methods and materials, and i have been applying to jobs for more about 3 months and havent heard anything. Its quite depressing..Ive changed my CV many times, rewritten  my cover letter/personal statement countless of times as well… with the help of my lovely supervisor, colleaques and friends…i speak to ppl coz i do feel slightly defeated sometimes and the one sentence i always hear is “keep on applying”….i applied to maybe about 10 jobs….10 applications…urm…dont know….roughly 2-3 hours each…..so 20-30 hours spent on applications….and my friend says…thats too little and not enough…apparently i have to apply to 200 to get one job!…how depressing…..200? thast ott, my course advisor told me his friends daughter had to apply to 200 to get her job………..O_O shocking! anyway,…so yes im feeling slightly blue coz i have yet to get a job as a research technician or research assistant…and altho i know i have to keep on applying and be persistent etc…sometimes,  i believe im allowed to say thats it, i give up, maybe cry abit and then start again ….its tough to even stay positive on things like this! and while staying positive and being persistent helps…i need a break sometimes too….hence my long-winded…beat round the bush, whiny…coz i am the Queen of whine and pout after all,…ever so interesting…blog…..yes…about my super exciting job hunt thats stressing me out!! damn uuu!i even went to the careers office for about an hour…got some good things on visas etc so thats good…and she sent some massive email about some…yah writing cv tips jobs etc…i havent read it yet…as im sure u have figured by now…and….again,….suggestions were made to make my cv look better …..im going to have to change my CV for the 100th time! but if it gets me a job thats great!! im sure my whining means nothing to many ppl but let me clear some air from my blurry little head and heart…makes me feel better..

im back in london.. yayyyyy!!! weeee!!! and i have internettt!!! yayyy!!! weeeee!!! its f*&%ing cold here tho…i didnt think it owuld be this cold at this freaking time but hey..good to be back i guess…-_-”"?. pretty much missing company and food etc at home tho T-T u guys should come here and see muaaaaaaa!! anyway apart from spending time with dan and unpacking etc…im in labs now…well not really..my supervisors were nice enough to give me this week off..not that i can do much anyway coz i have to go through some weird induction thing first hehe…and thats this thursday…so im kinda stuck in this computer room with stuff to read and new stationary…..weee!! i got my new lab book etc!!! hmmm…i tried to read in the lab and failed…and just looked around … so greg said i could come up here….and u know what…i still cant read here!!! ….. maybe i should go home…but i said i would go after lunch so yesssss then i will have to start reading etc …how funnn..project is on androgen insensitivity syndrome…so theres like a mutation in the androgen receptor and we r gonna mess around with co activators..weeeee fun fun anyway im off…pretty bored…dont know why i cant seem to study here. hopefully i will get used to it after awhile..taaaaaaaaaaaaaaa xxx